I have always had that creative bone in my body. I have always wanted to express myself creatively be it through singing, dancing acting or making.
I have been lucky in my professional past that I was able to make a living doing what I loved. I booked acting roles, singing appearances and theatre teaching jobs which all required long hours but were rewarding. It was always lovely to take a step back and look at what I had accomplished. I put everything on pause when I moved countries, met my husband and had our first child.
Even before I had my son I had been creative but I found that when he was born all my energy had to go to him and also keep me functioning (especially in those early days).
We are so lucky in this country to have the option to take up to a year’s maternity leave. I wasn’t ready to leave my son after the year was up so I ended up becoming a stay at home mum. Then I had my second son and (only now) five years on, do I feel mentally ready to be able to focus on other passions I have besides raising my children (who are and always will be my number one passion in life).
Hopefully this time next year my little business will be in full swing, I will have auditioned and booked acting roles for the first time in TEN years and I will have a creative space and outlet. I have so many ideas that have been going around my heads for months now – I feel I just need to head space and time to put them all in to practice.
I sometimes wish I had my mum and sister around to help. I have close friends about who I consider family but they also have young children of their own and there is something less presumptuous about asking your mum to watch the kids for a couple hours while you work on your creations and go out auditioning than it is asking your friends to do the same. I know they would but I always feel it a big ask – especially when I know that we are all in the same boat. My husband works long hours and can travel for work so as a result I’m by myself most of the day. Carving out time to make my business work and come to life and ALSO get into the acting world again will take time and energy that I worry I don’t have at the moment. I know it will come and when it does I’ll be so excited to see it all come to life.