Wow! No one told me that some days being a parent would be an emotional rollercoaster. Of course I knew it wouldn’t be a walk in the park but after today I realise that the whole adjusting to being a mum is an ever evolving thing!
My boys are now 5 and 2 and today I had one of those parenting days when you just feel overwhelmed and at the end of your tether. The toddler is properly having his terrible two tantrums over tiny things and my 5 year old is finishing his first year at primary school so is pretty tired in the afternoons which ends up in arguments and tears with both boys.
My lovely toddler is also a sweet loving boy who also can’t leave me EVER. So today when I was emotional I heard Mummy, Mummy, Mummy…constantly. It was overwhelming.
I was on my own for most of the day which meant that I had no help or relief all day. Most days that is totally fine but today was different. I really thought I was having an anxiety attack. Thinking about all the jobs and different things I had to accomplish and realising that by 2pm not much had been done.
When I have days like today I find I have renewed admiration for my mum. I always say to her…”now I get it!”
My boys are just being little boys and I do understadn this but sometimes navigating your parenting journey while walking on egg shells around two irritable humans is a scary, scary place!